A would-be romantic holiday turned into a violent break-up.
I'll be honest with you: we beat each other up.
Like savage creatures in the night, he wanted to hurt me, and I him.
It became the most disturbing and eye-opening experience of my life.
I knew, then and there, I needed to walk away. I needed to take a good look at my life and the shadows that seemed to be gravely distorting my reality.
Within minutes of parting ways , I found myself in a Oneness experience which I still can't fully describe in words. As I walked away from him on the beach, everything slowed down and I became paralysed, unable to move at all.
Sensations I had never before encountered flooded my body. The limits of my physical body began dissolving, and I found myself merging with everything around me: the sea, the sky, the dry rolling hills.
As I emerged from this experience and returned home, I knew my life had changed forever.
I found tantra.
I turned to Tantra for answers. I was keen to unearth the murkiness that was affecting my relationships.
I was quickly inspired to go deeper, and enrolled in a 1-year training in Berlin.
My motivation was simple: I wanted to find love.
I ended up finding Oneness.
Alongside Tantra, I began exploring somatic movement therapy.
This lead me to learn about the mystery schools of Ancient Greece and Egypt and their practices of death/birth.
At the end of the 1-year training, we were guided into a deep-dive process in which we spent three full days and nights in complete darkness.
Our somatic elements of breath, sound, movement, and touch allowed us to drop below our stories, narratives, and limited patterns for extended periods. In this space, radical transformation occurred.
I entered the process a broken man: Carrying the weight of a $500000 debt from a failed business, and no one to blame but myself.
I found answers in places I would never have expected. I met my shadow and was forced to stare it straight in the eyes.
I received visions and hallucinations, including desert nights and fiery, flaming demons.
I was visited by experiences from this life and previous ones.
I emerged a transformed man, bearing new abilities to transcend the layers of illusion that kept me from my truth.
I moved from the brink of bankruptcy to being financially independent in a short period.
Everything moved at lightning speed.
My newfound freedom brought spaciousness to my life.
Guidance began to appear, as well as the courage to follow it.